As we move further into consciousness,
we are being asked to no longer blindly, or unconsciously, protect based on fears, old pain, and in
support of walls long-ago
erected. As we grow, we are being nudged
into protecting as a responsibility, from an unwounded place, a place
of clarity
and strength. Grab on to your Truth and pull from there.
You aren’t your pain, but when it’s really insisting
on your attention
it’s time to listen, to face the beast and look it strait in the eyes.
When it’s this
close and personal there’s no going around it. You have
to go through. But don’t get caught in the vortex that
can take you
down into a tailspin. Look it in the eye, realize you are enough
(brave enough, strong enough, smart enough,
worthy) to overcome what
stands in your way.
And if it’s blocking your path and making it clear that you’re
going to
have to reckon with it, understand this is your work right now. The
flow has been interrupted because the energy
in the way needs to be
removed. In order to remove the energy, to overcome what stands in
your way, you have to get
to the heart of it. You have to comprehend
its nature. You have to decipher the code before you can pass into the
next
chamber of your evolution. This can’t be done by allowing it to
throw you off balance. It can only be done by retrieving
your strength,
standing in your truth, and loving yourself forward-loving yourself
whole. You are being taken to such
a deep level with it so that you
can see how much the unconscious stuff is still effecting you. You have
to go to the
heart of it, deeper than the thoughts, and realized that
the theme is something that you need to excavate in order to be
unlimited
and true and fully in joy. You have to embrace the message in
order for it to go. But first you have to take the question
into your
heart.
So there’s an element of tough love involved here as you disengage from
the power struggle
within and demand that a) the parts of you that are
seeking dominion cease and desist, and b) the part of you that is
consciousness,
that is sovereign, that is truth, steps up to the plate
and confronts that which is reeking havoc. Here’s where the
updated
armor comes in. This armor is about protecting your self, in many
ways, from yourself. Up till now, we have
projected the ‘enemy’ as
being somewhere ‘out there’. But along the way of this journey, we
will
come to see that the biggest enemy, the most treacherous and
deceitful by far, has been the one within. And as it all comes
full
circle, we are being redirected to the relationship we have with our
own selves. For in order to move forward in
our endeavors, to becomes
open in communion with others, to be truly joyful and fulfilled, we
have to release ourselves
from our self-imposed prisons and break free
of the ways of being that have kept us stuck. It is about setting
boundaries
with the part of you that is acting out and placing limits
on what you will allow and wont. It’s about not allowing
yourself to
be pulled under by the guilt, doubt, resentment, but instead becoming
in tune to what it’s telling
you. This is the process of becoming
conscious and learning to quiet the unconscious by facing it rather
than running,
leaning forward rather than holding back, and mastering
your emotions, rather than being ruled by them.
In essence,
we are protecting our selves from the harsh elements of the
unconscious. We truly have no idea of the scope of deception
we are
facing, until we enter the castle where no souls have been imposed. So
much of what we say and do to ourselves
is completely unconscious. The
unconscious governs this aspect of us, the one that deceives, demeans,
dichotomizes,
and distracts the self through worry, doubt, feelings of
resentment and regret, and negative head spins. None of this is
loving.
Yet there is this theme, or undercurrent to the self-reproach,
telling us that it is for our highest good, that by climbing
into the
loop and retracing the groove in our heads, we will learn something, we
will understand how ‘not’
to be whatever we are reprimanding ourselves
for. This, sweet ones, is the deception. For there is no way through
that
door, in fact there is no door there to begin with. You can’t
solve something by operating in the energy that it
was created.
It is though clear though that this ‘aspect’ of ourselves wants us to
learn something.
It’s speaking too loudly for us not to hear. And if
we can extract ourselves from the loop log enough to ask with
our
hearts (very important not to continue the dialogue in our heads)- but
bring it into the heart and then ask ‘what
is it I need to know?’ “What
is the gift in this?’ There is a valuable gift, a treasure, a jewel,
to
be had when we determine the rules of the game. When we are
suffering or under duress; when we are at war with ourselves
and
playing out the vicious cycles in our heads; when we feel we have gone
to our depths, we are being given the opportunity
to rise higher.
We are being groomed in ways to do it different, to be heart-based,
integrity-centered, and power-filled
creators in our worlds. This
means that we must learn to navigate the perceived dangers within and
without and establish
what in fact is a threat and what is only serving
as an illusion. There are thoughts and feelings and life experiences
that
you can slice through and disable by realizing the truth, by
rearranging you perspective to allow for the possibility that
these are
not serving you. But there are also those that won’t so easily move
aside, or are just down-right gripping,
that are here to teach us.
They are here to point the way. Just remember not to get swallowed by
the signpost. You will
begin to learn how to discern when to stay and
when to go. And in this, you will better be able to honor and
appreciate
your progress. You will begin to see that you must stop
along the river of your path and polish the stones that have hindered
your
flow.
So, in the face of regret, ask what is it I have lost? What experience
has escaped me? What am I missing out
on? What am I sacrificing over
and again that my ‘regret’ is bringing to my attention? Are you not
participating
fully in life and missing out on making new memories? In
the face of doubt, Are you cowering and not standing in our power
too
often and have been for too long? Have you missed the chance to be
solid in who you truly are? In the face of guilt,
are you ignoring or
overriding the inner voice that guides you and missing out on the
connection to your higher self,
while inadvertently making the path
harder than it needs to be? Trace it to the heart of what’s speaking to
you.
What’s the big message? What really needs your attention and
correction? Zoom in and step over the barrage so that
you can see
clearly and consciously make a difference rather than continuing to get
caught in the trap. The message
will only get louder as the need to
extend consciousness throughout your being increases and the drive to
become whole
ensues.
Aloneness, separateness, and isolation are all core issues that we are
releasing. We are feeling them so
that we can be aware of their
presence in our consciousness/unconsciousness, and so that we can
embrace (love the part
that needs healing) and release them. Some
things can be released. Some things, the really old, deep stuff, seems
to
need to be held, acknowledged, and loved before it will go. We need
to look it in the eye and see it for what it is, on
a deep soul level,
from a heart place, before it will transcend, before we can transcend,
and be released from it.
We're
learning how to find our way through and love our selves whole
again. And we're doing it by standing in our power and living
from our
truth. We are finding our way to wholeness and creating the space for
the flow. We are becoming stronger every
day, even in and especially in
the face of adversity. And as we stand in our integrity and face our
fears and demons,
they become a source of love and power, and we become
more. Your sword is your truth, your armor is love, your way forward
is
integration. Be encouraged, be proud of how far you have come, and be
solid in the strength and wisdom of who you
truly are.
Upward and onward!
Love to you on your path!
~Rhonda
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