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Still Standing But Barely Breathing By Jennifer
Hoffman
When I was going through a period
that I would describe as one of the darkest nights of my soul, I was overwhelmed by the cascade of events, each one more challenging
than the one before, that seemed to appear out of nowhere, on an almost daily basis. I knew that this was a mistake, that
this was not my life and certainly not something I had volunteered for on any level.
The only way I could see to
end the misery was to ask God to take me away. So every night, when I went to bed, I thanked God for the opportunities I had
in this life, hoped that I had done some good in my life and asked God to please take me home. Then every morning I would
open my eyes and say "Damn it, I'm still here."
Now I didn't do this once or twice, I did it for six straight
months. And I would be so disappointed that each day I was still around to face the issues that seemed to have no resolution.
I was still standing, but barely breathing. I still had my life but I was no longer involved in it. Overwhelmed with my problems,
I had not really given up, I was just stuck in the cycle of what seemed to be endless problems, not realizing that I was at
the source of this endless spiral of misery. How would this cycle end? When I started breathing new life into my sleeping
existence.
I started breathing again and didn't happen overnight but through a series of events that forced
me to start looking at my life from a different perspective and to consider other options. And as I did, other doorways opened
up and things started improving, slowly at first and then quite rapidly. In less than six months I had a new job with a great
salary, moved into a new home and began measuring my life in terms of how fast I was moving instead of worrying that I was
going to stand still forever.
When life gets really bad, and many of you know what that is like, we can become
the 'walking dead.' We're still alive and standing, but we are not breathing any new energy into our lives. We can't because
we don't know where the energy is going to come from and are so grounded in our unhappiness and despair that we can't even
figure out how or where to begin. Everywhere we turn we are reminded of the mess our life has become. Will it change and can
we change it?
We look for help from others until the truth stares us in the face -- no one can really help
until we find the will within ourselves to create the spark that will shift our energy. And we're engaged in a battle with
our dark feelings and thoughts at one end, and faith and trust at the other. Which side will win?
At that moment
we have two choices, we can fall farther into despair or wake up and realize that everything really is in our control. Once
we start moving the energy things can happen very quickly, as they did for me. But getting to that point, from the place where
we are drowning in darkness, can feel very scary and lonely. Where is this spark going to come from? It has three sources:
our thoughts, feelings and faith.
Are you going through a dark night of the soul? Have you stopped breathing
and even though you are still standing. Are you standing still, hoping that if you can wait long enough the worst will be
over soon so you can figure out what to do next? Are you so overwhelmed by what you are going through or have gone through
that you are looking at the past and forgetting that you need to live in the present moment to create conscious change in
your life?
What will it take for you to breathe a new spark into your life? What happens if you change one
thought about your situation? Just pick one, Instead of trying to figure out how you can change everything (and get more overwhelmed),
is there one thing you can change in your thinking that will create an opening for the change you are hoping for to come?
What
is one thing you can change about the way you feel that will help you get control over your emotions so you stop spiraling
into despair? Can you replace one hopeless feeling with faith, even if you do not have any reason to believe (from the results
you have had until that moment) that anything will happen differently? We can't tell the Universe to show us the results before
we are willing to put our faith to work. But if we change our thoughts, which changes the energy, set a new intention and
have faith that it will happen, we can start waking up and breathing new life into our reality and start living again.
Stay
calm, focused, detached and aware and remember your thoughts are creating every moment of your life. Think the best ones.
As
you ponder this and the other things that are happening at this time remember to:
Accept all gifts of understanding
with gratitude and use them to apply forgiveness, release and healing to every situation.
Ask for guidance and
confirmation and then wait for it to come to you.
Above all, be grateful for this opportunity to be part of humanity's
amazing shift in consciousness as we all ascend into the miracle vibration.
Many blessings in these miraculous and
amazing times,
Jennifer Hoffman
www.urielheals.com
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