Finding Yourself

As you come to know Me, and consciously know Me well, you have seen more of My light reflected in the eyes of those you meet. You have seen this. You have noted this. You have had peak moments when your heart was full of Me and full of the world. You have had moments, days, weeks, months, when all is Unity. How far you have come. And then, perhaps suddenly, perhaps gradually, you may sense yourself falling away from life in the world, or the world is slipping away from you. How can this be? How can you feel so present with Me and yet so far from the world at large and even the people in your life.

There may come a time, when you know Me, when you share Me, when I am notably established in your heart, and well, beloveds, you settle in and find that seemingly nothing can compare to the sense of At-Homeness that you feel with Me. It is as if everything pales next to Me. You have Me fully in your awareness, and not the world. Suddenly or gradually, there are those moments when life in the relative world does not fill your heart to the same extent that I do. The world and the people in it may not have the charm for you that they once did. World life feels flat. You move in it, and yet you feel out of it. You feel half-hearted about the world. You feel you have lost something and that you have gone backwards. The world and the people in it become more like cardboard world and people. This certainly does not feel like evolution to you.

What is happening is that your personal involvement has lessened. Your personal ownership has lessened. You may even feel that you do not exist. You can no longer feel the boundaries of yourself.

It is really true, beloveds, that as you find yourself, you lose yourself. This may feel like separation to you. You are separating from your personal self. The personal is fading. This may feel like a loss to you and a step backwards. You may feel that you have lost your heart, not given it away to another, simply lost your heart somewhere in the ether, and you feel you may never find it again. Hang on.

Life will not be the same for you. The world will not be the same. When you come out of this tunnel you feel you are in, you and the goldenness of life will be stronger. This that I speak of is beyond the Union of Heart you have been used to. It will be great Union with Me and a reunion of sorts with the world.

The vicissitudes of life will not affect you as they once did. Emotional attachment will be less. For now it may seem to you that you are disconnected. You are disconnecting from the past and your past sense of what life is.

You have just climbed a new mountain, beloveds, and you are at a higher elevation where you see differently. You may miss your old mountain and the view you had. This larger perspective may not be what you thought it would be, and yet you will see clearly and you will integrate with the new height you have risen to. You do get to where you wanted to be. You are like a boy scout who went to the camp he wanted to go to, and then he finds himself homesick. Soon enough, he becomes acclimated to camp.

Soon enough, you will acclimate to your new mountain. You will serve the Universe greatly.

    Talking about spiritual things from a practical level, some have
asked, "What should I do spiritually in my life? What's appro-
priate? What is correct? What does Spirit want?"
    That's an easy answer for us. When you're in your medita-
tions, we want you to ask the real question and stop giving
demands. Let me tell you this: What many of you have often
decided to ask for is the most limiting factor of your lives! You
cannot conceive of what to ask for because it's too grand. Some
of the plans for those in this room are far grander than you could
ever realize. Therefore, how can you begin to know what to ask
for when you don't have the overview? The overview is of your
partner, and that's US. When you sit before Spirit, just ask the
question: "Dear God, what is it you would have me know?"
And leave it at that. Then trust for synchronicity as you push on
the doors around you.
    When it comes to trust, let me tell you what Spirit expects. As
we have told you recently, we wish to partner with you!
Gone are the days when you think of
God as the shepherd and you are the sheep. Gone are the days
when you "let go and let God." Gone are the days when you use
the word surrender to God. Instead the word is now commit-
ment. I want you to understand this: There is a partnership now--
a hand-holding. How would you like to have a partner who had the
full overview of the Universe? That's your Higher Self--that's the
hand we want you to hold--not the hand of Spirit or any other
channel. It's the anointed one inside you. It's the golden angel that
resides in you that is your actual piece of God.
    That's the energy we want you to partner with as you move
forward in your life. Partnering with God is the issue here. It is
spiritual and practical. No longer see your boat of life drifting in
a sea of frightening uncertainty. Instead, visualize this: Take the
tiller of the rudder in your hand with wisdom and power. Watch
the giant hands of Spirit--your own golden angel of Higher Self--
wrap its fingers around yours, and together, you steer an anointed
course to home. This is partnership, and it represents the new
paradigm of your New Age.


				*Finding Yourself*