*** MIND - You have many minds but you have only one
heart. Have you
observed this fact? You don't have one mind; you are
multipsychic,
you have many minds. They constantly change-every
moment your mind
changes. One moment it is full of doubt, another
moment it is full
of belief, and another moment again it is full of doubt.
One moment
it wants to take the jump, another moment it escapes.
One moment you
are so full of love, another moment so full of anger and
hate. ---
Watch it: you have a thousand and one minds, and they
go on rotating.
There is a kind of rotation system in your head. For a
moment one
mind becomes the master, and in that moment you
decide something and
you think you will be able to do it. You will not be able
to,
because next moment the monarch is gone. It is a
rotation system:
another mind has come up, now another spoke of the
wheel has come up.
And this mind knows nothing of the decision that the
other mind has
taken. - This self knows nothing of the other self; it will
destroy
whatsoever you have decided. One moment you decide
never to smoke
again, another moment you are pulling out your
cigarette packet.
And you are surprised-just a moment ago you had
decided, and the
decision seemed so total, so TRUSTABLE. And now it is
all gone, gone
down the drain, nothing of it is there. And you are
perfectly
willing to smoke again. And again that old mind will
come back and
torture you, and you will repent and think that you are
guilty. -
But this will go on changing. Mind is a flux, it is a
continuum of
many minds. And that's why those who live in the mind
live a
disintegrated, fragmentary life. - The heart is one, it is
always
one. The heart means the watching consciousness in
you. Who is the
watcher of the head? Try to meditate over it. Anger
comes: who is
watching? You know perfectly well that there is anger;
you know
perfectly well that it is coming and growing, you know
perfectly
well that soon you will be overwhelmed by it. And then
it is going,
receding, disappearing, you know it is gone. Gone,
gone, gone, it is
no more there. Who is watching? - Love comes and
goes. Misery comes,
happiness comes, everything comes and everything
goes. Who is
watching? The watcher remains. - Only one thing in you
is constant,
and that is the watcher. Everything changes, only the
watcher abides.
That watcher is your soul. - The real silence happens
when you start
watching the noise of your mind. - There is a constant
traffic in the
mind-thoughts, memories, imagination, thousands of
desires. It is
always a crowd moving in all directions. If you can
stand by the
side of the road and just watch, without any evaluation,
judgment,
without condemning something or appreciating
something - just sitting
on the bank of the river, watching the flow of the river,
unconcerned,
detached, just being a pure witness, then the miracle
happens. ***